So far we have worked with a naturopath to balance all my hormones in hopes that getting everything that was just a little bit off in my system back on track would result in a pregnancy, but in a year of trying that method, we still have no baby. I do, however, feel a lot better. My body feels like it is functioning well and I no longer feel like I want to sleep all the time, so it definitely has done some good for me.
With much praying, we have never felt good about starting the process of adoption, which always seemed weird to me. The only answer I ever got was that I needed to learn patience from this experience. I know my Heavenly Father's plan for me is what is best, but I found myself sometimes wishing I just had a bit more of an idea of what that would entail. It has been a frustrating 2 years not being able to have what we have been praying for, when it seems like such a righteous desire. However, this past November, during open enrollment at Austin's work, they announced they would be offering a new plan that we should all take a look at and see if we wanted to stick with what we had or move to the new one. Whatever, we thought, we're satisfied with our plan. However, when going over the details of the new plan, we discovered they offered an infertility benefit, and a BIG one at that. We would be able to start the in vitro treatments we thought would have to wait until after Austin finished school and we could save up the many thousands of dollars it would cost. It seemed too good to be true.
We set to praying about this option right away, as we know it is not how Heavenly Father makes all families and we didn't want to go down that road if it wasn't for us. We both felt really good about where this road was taking us, and the earlier answers about not adopting and learning patience started to make sense. It makes me sure, now, that the timing of this blessing is not coincidental. The road ahead still seems daunting, and we don't know if this will result in a success for us, but we are both sure it is what we are supposed to do next.
As soon as we got the new insurance cards, we called to make sure there were no conditions or loopholes that would result in us not being covered for some reason, and we were assured that it covered all the procedures we would need to undergo. We feel so blessed to have this come into our lives right at this time, because as I have read about others' IVF journeys, many have not been so lucky and have had to secure financing in other ways, most of which inevitably slow treatments down.
We have an appointment to meet with our reproductive endocrinologist (RE) on the 18th, so I just have to hang tight for 10 more days. As of now, the tests I have undergone have all come back normal, other than just a bit of subclinical hypothyroidism that has now been regulated. I am sure they are going to want to do more testing on me and possibly on Austin (his test also came back looking fantastic), but so far, no one has been able to give me a clear reason as to why I can't seem to conceive. I have had an HSG, which is where they inject dye into your uterus looking for blockages, etc., and that was normal. I have also had some blood work, but I am sure there is still more to be done after our consult with the RE. Most likely, though, we will be headed toward in vitro, so I am psyching myself up for hormone shots and the scary idea of the egg retrieval procedure.
I am hopeful and apprehensive. I am also hoping to get Austin to write once in a while in here too, so we can get both sides of the story, but he is going to be very, very busy with school this semester, so I will give him a LITTLE bit of a break.
